A glimpse

Calloused in reproach, why it didn’t make its way to the center of the universe I don’t know.
I believed in our love to the penny picking inch of every leaf on every branch of our garden
Bathed in tears -two years of not having seen you-
this thing where I can virtually talk to you, I see you cry too
Balls of forgiveness pound on me like rain
Torrential in the tropical hills where we stood
Holding one another in binds that drift beyond
Hallucinations and the drugs we knew
Killing others
Beyond the drifting whine of our babies at dark times
Huddled in blankets our hearts only knew
Till the dawn pushed us out again
Flowers grew around our patio
Pushed up against a city jet black gang
Dog song, and tattoo death
Bullets police and thieves wouldn’t keep us in
Cadavers tortured under hollow cursed bridges
Of whores and glue sniffers
And toxic garbage from the leaking walls behind us
The children played hide and seek in the folds of
Mama’s skirt local as the beggar kissed her own
As the tilted buses bore me forward through
Those streets of deathly love
The strangulation of flowing blood carpeted
The bedroom attire at sunrise bellowing
Noontime meals with 13 at the table
Children born in houses by church midwives
Squeaky nocuous shots of floor soap and squeaky clean
Toes pitter patter across, to a ringing door bell from hell
“Give me the children” He said pointing the gun at her head
She slammed the door and threw the children
Back to the back of the garage, leaving him out side
I was working and got the call
They tried to kidnap your kids;
but had the wrong house.
I had angel wings, angel eyes, and angel heart
I swear it wasn’t my whiteness that saved me
Just that I knew what I did do- was good unto others
And that protected me.
Except against you- the one I loved the most.