Broken heart sweet

Sometimes I wonder if I will ever fall in love ever again
so completely as it did once when we were then
Glowing in one another's' dreams
Sparkling in the ripples of the lakes tears
and walking through the tunnels of kind bliss
I still mourn your loss which was so long ago now
If I could have those days back again
Id take them
Barefoot and bear breasted in the rain
of your arms sweet
candle light on your cheek in the house by the river
where mold grew beautiful and green on our wall
next to the most beautiful bed I ever lay
night air warm in wine and love
the music rings in me like it were today
and yet it was half a life time ago now
I dont regret having loved you then
as I do now
Will I ever know true love again?

Two picures

The video game
he shoots and scores
killing 12
a new winner
highest score
He goes to the fridge
it has
chemical milk
hormone yogurt
He looks in the closet
and finds himself a Kellogg rice crispy
unwraps the plastic
throw it in the trash
and goes to watch his favorite program
till mom calls for dinner
proud, high, and dosed.

A different boy
In front of a lake
shading his eyes against the suns
reflection on the water
Listening to the crickets
pausing
just for a second
before making a mad dash
for the inside of the
fresh, cold
deep
plunging
in joy.
Proud , high, dosed

I dream of love
night after morning
dawn and dusk again
wandering in his arms
Each and every
thought and curve
brings me to his
body and mine
He changes shape
he changes
form
as each dream
comes inside me heart
the infusion
of new generosity
He acts impossible
yet wanting me still
He takes me day before night
light before dark
lulled before passion

Two of them

There were two of them
They came to my house
and I payed them more than they expected
I wanted it done right
They were the usual type you'd see in a
Hollywood flick

I explained to them what I wanted done
They didnt ask me any questions
and seemed confident in them selves
I trusted them enough and also
Didnt go into details of why , where or how

Later they told me: We took him by surprise
We cornered him there in the corner you had asked us to
and pinned it deeply in his chest
we took a stethoscope and listened carefully
to make sure it was done right
He stood pretty much cool as we did it to him
Didnt take his eyes off us
and didnt move when we left.

I had wanted this done now for a long time
I had seen these things happen to others
and wanted the guarantee that it would work out for me too
So I hired them- to do it
I had secured it- they had fastened it into your heart
hinged it to the walls, it would flow in your blood now forever
no going back- you were now mine.

Woman

Any man could taste me now
and find
The perfection
of my fertility
I have been yours for ever
Any man could feel my weight
with possibility of bearing
I have been your
future forever
without you-
without me
there is no
future at all
I am the possibility
I am your death
Sacred to some
a weapon to others
Your weapons stand as erect as
the symbol
of your future
If in love-
You loved me
If In Truth I bore you
Would not that truth be
fruit upon our lands
Would not the gentleness
of my son, my father, my lover, my spouse
know me as I am?